My grandmother, Gigi, passed away Friday afternoon.
As I've heard many people say in the past 48 hours "even when you know it's their time to go you're still never ready for the moment it happens".
That's so true. I know that right now I feel some relief that Gigi won't be in pain any longer and that she won't have to feel as though she has had her independence taken from her. She lived at home for so long - this past week being in an assisted nursing facility had to be so difficult.
I visited with her last Tuesday, while she was in the hospital for a brief stay due to pneumonia. I took the girls with me (Trev was taking ISTEPS so he needed to be in school) and we spent some moments with her as she drifted in and out of sleep.
Thankfully she was sleeping when she took her last breath and slipped away peacefully.
I will hold on to my own special memories, of which there are too many to count.
I am so worried about how this loss is affecting my own Mom. Gigi was her mother.
On Friday evening Mom decided she wanted us all to get together to celebrate life and have a feast and fun time together as family - I couldn't agree more!
We all gathered at Mom & Dad's home-away-from-home, the campsite with their trailer. We grilled, giggled, took walks and relaxed around the fire. We shared old pictures of Gigi as a girl and a woman and as a Rockette - yes she was a professional dancer and a gorgeous show-girl! The kids were able to hear stories about Gigi and Grampy, her Marine husband and my Grandpa. It was wonderful to be able to share together and at one point Mamie chimed in and said 'I'm so happy Gigi is with her husband in heaven!' There is a silver lining...
Life is terminal. There is a finite number of days we each have.
Use them wisely and without hate or selfish motivation.
Smile more and frown less. Say 'I love you' more and accept love from others.
And as my Mom said on her blog - hold someone you love a little bit longer today.